I had dinner with a friend tonight ...
We had only talked twice in the last several years, briefly last year at a convention and then many years ago on the phone. It was the phone conversation that ended poorly.
I carried a burden of my contribution to the conflict for about seven years. It weighted me down like an anchor. I blamed myself for the loss of friendship ... for responding to an email and something that was said that I felt was out of line. I took a risk and shared what I was feeling ... it "blew up" and it felt as though there had been an earthquake ... a huge crack between two friends.
So ... last night we talked. He couldn't figure out what I was talking about. I said I was sorry.
So a one sided burden I carried.
I lost years of a friendship ...
Guess I should have pulled the anchor up sooner ...
What is weighing you down?
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